Get thee Hence, Backward Sociological Thinking

There is something on my mind that I don't even know how to touch. The emperor knows but he tells me that it is my journey. I must learn it for myself. Yet knowing that does not make the task any easier. Even though what ails me is so basic and simple, there must needs be a complex answer. At least that is the way I trained myself to think brought to me in part via the world. This is where the emperor nods a knowing smile.
I have't had much to smile about. It all comes down to the fact I just don't know what my purpose is. As I am writing this, I still dont know.

I walked to the mailbox the other day. It was wonderfully cloudy out.As I approached the mailbox, Rain started pouring down. It was glorious. I walked back to my house in the pouring rain. I laughed as opened the door at the mere thought of how soaked I was. I felt alive.